My life changed at 4:22 pm April 7. As I was in the midst of washing dishes, the Holy Spirit very distinctly and clearly said, call Georgetown. I immediately stopped what I was doing and called to get the results of the sterostatic biopsy I had April 1st. I was expecting a call from them, the day before, but that didn’t happen.
I’m so glad I listened to the voice of the Lord speaking to me. A radiologist, whose name I can’t remember and horrible demeanor I shall never forget said, “I was asked to give you these results.” She then said “you’re not driving are you?” Really? What lady? In my mind, I’m thinking, just spit it out. God has already prepared me for what you’re going to say. It was then that she uttered the big “C” word—CANCER. She said the results from the biopsy came back positive and the tumor is in the milk ducts and it is in situ, which means it’s in the original place. Now, do you have any questions?
What? That’s it. That’s ALL she said!
She said, well the radiologist who performed the biopsy is not in the hospital and I was just pulled into this to give you these results.
As she coldly reminded me she wasn’t familiar with my primary physician, she asked again if I had any questions and said she could refer me to one of the surgeons since that was the next likely step. Nope. Madam, you can’t refer me to anybody.
Later that evening, after my husband got home from work, I told him. In his words, the news hit him like a punch to the gut. He said, that’s not the outcome I prayed for. (Side bar, dear it’s never the outcome anyone prays for). I told him I was fine. Here’s what I know for sure, everybody wants to say God is a healer and God is a deliverer, but no one wants to be the one who is proof of that. I reminded him that I always remind people keep your focus on the Word. I would have to do the same.
April 8th, I awoke to a new morning and renewed strength. A dear friend and I had prayed much of the night. The people closest to me who I pray for and with were all informed that we had a new mission and this time it was ME. The fight has begun. I know this: He who has begun this good work in me is well able to complete it until the day of Jesus Christ. I am thankful that the Lord loves me enough to give me a passage of Scripture from which all prayers will begin. Mark 11:22-24
This is what I know for sure: Isa. 40:8 – The grass withers, the flowers fade, BUT God’s Word stands FOREVER.
I am not going to hide. I will not give the enemy any ammunition, neither will I steal God’s glory, because even in this, I still have my testimony that God is good. God is a healer. God is my deliverer, my refuge and my strength; therefore, I shall not fear.